Hindsight Lyrics and Notes All songs written, performed, recorded, mixed, and mastered by Greg Goldman at Cedar Studios, St. Louis, Missouri. Cover art by Tim Corner, Martha’s Vineyard, Massachusetts. Special thanks to: Liz Goldman, Teddy Goldman, Sammy Goldman, Tim Corner, Charlie Campbell, Ben Smith, John Daly, and Brandi Parker. This album is comprised of one-half songs written in 2020 and one-half songs written seven or more years earlier (the earliest-written song is Away, written sometime around 1995). Thus, it is a combination of songs looking back into the past and songs looking ahead to what’s next. After all, hindsight is 20/20. - GG 1. Toss it Back 2. Don’t Remind Me 3. Small Miracles 4. What’s the Use 5. Either/Or 6. Anthracite 7. Scissorboy 8. For All Time 9. Away 10. Truth in Hindsight 11. Let Live 12. Mailbox © Greg Goldman 2020 www.greggoldmanmusic.com Toss It Back I try to leave it But there’s simply no way home I try to tease it But I’m feeling it in my bones And I don’t believe it always I won’t deceive you anymore But to pull me apart from you? I want to see ya’ And just sit the whole storm out It’s a fever And I’m hotter than cold right now I don’t believe I can wait But then I’ve never been good with restraint I’m tossing it back to you I don’t believe you darling I’ve seen the good and the true I don’t believe you darling But what can I do? So I’m tossing it back to you Don’t Remind Me I don’t mind Just leave it when you’re through Just leave it when you want to I don’t mind I’m behind I missed if it was fine To open up my mind I’m behind And nothing is the end And nothing is the last word There’s nothing to pretend That would be wrong I’m on top At least it’s hard to stop I’ll stop it when I want to I’m on top And nothing keeps me down And nothing makes me wronger There’s nothing hanging ‘round That is my fault I won’t forget you now Don’t remind me I thought a way somehow Don’t remind me I won’t forget you now Don’t remind me I thought about it all this time And I’m alive So don’t remind me Small Miracles So much fighting your nature But I suppose that it's natural Wanna push you together And yet I fear that it's fractural Pace it out however you have to You never know when our fate will drag you home So much responding with anger But you come by it naturally And when you process it later I'm fairly sure it comes back to me Work it out however you have to Just so long as you make it back to home The very fact that you exist at all Is to me a miracle Let me sit and just savor It won’t be like this all that long We’ve handed down so much labor Need to practice at staying strong Just toss out whatever you have to We’ll be here when you trace it back to home The very fact that you exist at all Honestly is a miracle Test it out whenever you have to Just so long as you make it back to home The very fact that you exist at all Is to me a miracle What’s the Use Well, figure it out Really, it’s no big deal Try to be the bigger one Bigger than the block on what you feel It’s been such a long time coming; where’s the “aha?” Just finally pull the trigger Oh, what’s the use in it? What’s it all for? Where’s the tenderness behind the bravado? I believe in being strong But I’m ready to be wrong Part of me shouts That this is not who we should be I should know better though I’ve known you since I could speak I spent such a long time hoping, wearing you down It seemed like we’d made some progress Oh, what’s the use of it? What’s it all for? What’s your intention behind the bravado? I believe I’m in the wrong But it’s not just the one song You can huff, you can puff You won’t blow the whole house down, oh no You can hope, you can pray I don’t believe in it anyway, oh no But time is on your side, I’ll grant you that Oh, what’s the use in it? What’s it all for? Where’s the hopefulness behind the bravado? What’s the use in it? Either/Or I take a piece of something each time that I see red I got to learn to keep those feelings locked away I know I’m not the one you had gambled on back then I understand this way of being’s not okay It’s not okay What you feel now As you’re eyeing the door Not so different You and I, either/or It took a bit of something this time I made the threat I know you fear the day I walk away I'm not the only one who has made this all a mess You understand we each have had a lot to say, a lot to say What we feel now As we're stopped at the door Who will reach out You and I, either/or I wanna be free of the weight of the past Chuck it all, drop the ball, start it over I have never believed in a straightforward path But that’s for pros; we’re off the road, we’re off the shoulder I gotta believe we can make it up again Take the chance, reach across, turn the corner You are the one I have loved for so long It’s not for show, not below any other What do we do now As we're stopped at the door Who will reach out You and I, either/or Anthracite I'm trudging along, both dunce and guiding light At odds with it all, head guy at the building site I’ve got the pieces All scuffs and creases No big releases Seasonal increases I’m part of the calm, faux human anthracite I’ve got a good hold, it isn’t second sight It’s somewhat hollow Not hard to swallow When one can follow A real-life Apollo When you choose who You will surrender to You could do worse than me You could do worse than me I'm out on the lawn soaking up the fading light Ignoring the call to shelter in place tonight Am I essential? Not deferential You've got potential I'll try to be gentle I’m trying to be calm and pass on something slight Don’t know how to talk without betraying fright We’re individuals Each with our own souls Skirting the black holes All accidental If you must choose Who to surrender to You could do a lot worse than me You could do a lot worse than me Scissorboy So you think that you’re alright to be me You’re successful in your life of plan B I’d like to see how bad you’ve got to break free Don’t it kill you to know you’re alive? You’re not angry when you’re asleep You’re not in it all too deep Don’t think you know So you’ve packed it up, heads 2 out of 3 Cleaned it out and on your way with the key Won’t you stop and turn once more and tell me That it’ll kill you to pack so light You’re not angry when you’re asleep You’re not in it all too deep Don’t think you know You’ll save your answers for the door There’s more you know, I’m sure, Than how you feel And what’s in store for me? You’re not in it all too deep Don’t think you know You’re not in it all too deep Don’t think you know For All Time Here we lay remains of you Among the stones and leaves Welcome home We couldn't ask for more Wouldn't you agree? Play the role As awkward as I might be, I'll be fine Over soon, sooner than you'd think I know you'd agree You'd think this wouldn't be really a thing But all of my life I've been dreaming All that's done For all time Call you home For all time Place my hand upon your chest And whisper close to your ear Let you go Been coming for so long Wouldn't you agree? Large you loom For reasons right or wrong It no longer matters Let you go as well as I know how Which isn't that much, but I'll try The farther I go in my life And feel you look out through my eyes All that's done For all time Call you home For all time Away You’re always thinking Like someone gets you Out there somewhere Or maybe you’re wrong It’s not so easy As waiting for what You know will come soon Because it won’t Don’t you think that you might find something better When you are one? And just accept it, man, you’ve already met her So why not move on? Do not let the past drag on and on behind today Further on you’ll find a place to put your mind away Away Can you remember The times you felt it Was strong and feelings Got a hold of your mind? But think the things you Had known would be true And you will find new Reason for light Don’t you think you might find you’re only better When you are one, And have a place where you can always find your center Whenever you want? Do not let your mind go on and on about the pain Easy as it is to just relax and count the days away Away Truth in Hindsight All jokes aside, it was ill advised, I will concede So much for esteem, that became a pipe dream the day when I was freed And I, I still remember when you turned to go Your smile, told me everything I hadn’t known For a while it felt like battling the undertow But now I see the truth in hindsight Four grinding years I’ve dealt with all of these fears, and now I’m out the other side Not that I would claim that I’m all done with self-blame, just not strung out on my pride And I, I still remember as you walked me out Petrified, you tried to tell me but I had my doubts I never said goodbye, but you were not what I was thinking about I can’t deny If I was too cruel, I’d do it again It hardly was enough in hindsight You and I, we both know, was the lesser loss that day If they survived, I can only guess at what they thought of me It was hardly right to make it seem as though I’d run away It’s on par with the truth in hindsight Let Live Come see this spectacle of a nation Don't believe the fans that flame the horror stories What can I do in this life, this station? On stage an avalanche is swallowing our pride Are we two camps of perfect zealots? Is there a truth between the mounds of theories? How can we know to trust those who tell us? Big dreams but all is lost to greed and foolish pride I see you, be who you are I believe you can be more than just an avatar Do you see me trying to forgive? Can you believe too? Live and let live No healing when we're under pressure Honestly but when's that not going to be the story? What can I do to make you consider All needs are pressing when we're here on borrowed time? I see you being who you are Do you believe too that we are more than just some avatars? Can you see me working to forgive? It all depends on you Live and let live Mailbox Okay, alright, I guess that this is one of those times When I can lower my defense and tell you how I’ve been I’m fine, sometimes, when I’m trying not to look for the kind Of security I had with you here, and live I always knew I’d lose my hold My sense of where the pieces go I never knew I’d have to start again Right now I don’t feel I can talk to you Right now there’s no one else I want to talk to And you don’t want to hear I’m here and I’m alone I’m lost somewhere, can’t find the way to go And I think that it’s because I’m scared that when I get home It’s changed, and my name has washed away with the rain That had fallen when the sun was on break one day I’ll see you when I come back home Call when I can stand on my own I’ll make believe I’m strong enough To pick you up again Right now I don’t feel I can talk to you Right now there’s no one else I want to talk to And I don’t want to have to feel like I’m alone Okay, alright, I worry this is one of those times Where I can lower my defense And tell you how I’ve been |